my only fight is my relfection

every curve not passing inspection

my teeth feel grungy

my brain spongy

read to absorb

to sleep and become a corpse

i surround myself with maturity

and try to escape my peers

because they dont understand me

im on a different level than them

i’ve connected with two

pushed them both away

what do i have to say

but take me to prom

in my heart there is a nuclear bomb

atoms splitting and colliding

all the rules i am abiding

ask me why

i couldnt tell ya

does anyone hear me

or do they fear me

i mean no harm

i just have a strange charm

an aquired taste

an attraction waste

someones out there right now

thinking of me, how.

hangnails and chipped nail polish

unaccepted love but pain demolish

all that was close to me and my life

strong  enough pressure breaks the knife

no one understands because im not normal

different color still floral

am i a light or a candle flame

am i capable or am i lame

i see the light produced burning the air surrounding

how life works is quite astoudning

the flame dies

lonely spirit cries

i see the pain and feel it too

is it mine, no, but forever true

shiny luster although dull

while thoughts race inside my skull

you called her a cunt

its true to be quite blunt

you shit or get off the pot

i did both and look what i’ve got

not you but my life and music and love

sleep while my spirit flies right above

my time stream and i see something beautiful

life changing and wonderful

my body knows, my body feels

these poems, my heart heals

Footsteps soft-while lights flicker
Southern comfort warm is this liquor
Faded in a front fold, never sicker
I saw your eyes and wanna know what’s behind them
Your hands tell a story
Silence hurts so I don’t feel
Living now for what’s real
I feel bad things turned out this way
I really hope you’re okay

holiday tree

cold air compensated with loving air

gather round with gifts to share

exctiment and joy

great food and a new toy

drink to this night

another like it will not be so

this is family, not a foe

i could write for days

about all your selfish ways

words that bite like mosquitos in the summer

heartbreaks that are such a bummer

you turned your cheek

called me weak, and let me die

now you wonder, but im too shy

why should i tell my deepest feelings

to someone who only cares of dealings

advise me and set me free

i will run fast, away from thee

for a caged bird hates to sing

and i have my own idea of the king

say i’m wrong, i’ve lost my mind

thanks so much you are so kind

oh thats a lie, just like everything else i say

its a shame i turned out this way

i wonder why the trees are bare

i wonder why i fail to care

give me one year, thats all i need

all the words you failed to hear, i made up with books i love to read

im moving forward to good things

im flying up high with my angel wings

It’s under my head but just in reach
You stick to me and suck my happiness like a leech
Take a picture cause this is it
What has life become, wanna hit?
I’m done with it all, I’ve grown
I’m different, it has shown
If you don’t like it that’s fine
It’s not your life it’s mine
Sitting here listening to drake
Hate me cause I wake and bake
All you motherfuckers are fake
I’m alone and I’m okay
You gonna be a hater than okayy
Bitches be crazy but I chill
Tell me to love you and I will
Walk away that’s cool too
I own my life, same goes to you
I’m a light you fuckers are dark
I’m a fish, you a shark

my god don’t be a pussy

you’re slow, no wonder i’m pushy

like a car rolling down a hill

like a bug you’re about to kill

a cartoon you’d love to forget

just a fish caught in a net

i’m no better but i’m alright

nothing worth giving up the fight

i’ll sleep good, tonight

coconut lime breeze

biting softly you gently tease

hot skin under the shade

your eyes a haunting color of jade

crisp air sea salt in my hair

i can’t escape your stare

coconut lime breeze

in your arms oh and you squeeze

you’re purple hot with bitta teal blue

falling for you, forever true

hot bath water in a summer sunset

i just haven’t met you yet

i’d call it bad weather

trying to satisfy an unforgiving hunger

blowing winds cold inside desserted

in a desert filled with sand

itty grity in your eyes

all thoughts and creatures gross and vile

lost i am, sludging on mile after mile

focused but lack of inspiration

left me all the tools sitting at my station

an artist with a block of clay

tell me which direction, which way

stepping on toes and bridges burning down

softly sinking down until i drown

never let them see you frown

for crying is weak, and i’m a clown

cold but oh so hot

you’re a too ripe fruit about to rot

spoiled rotten is the other on my mind

once i thought you were so kind

cinnamon swirl you oh so denied

you hurt me and i cried

my tounge feels raw from fighting words

im not like you this shit to me is usually slurred

completely blurred by dizzy haze

you know you crave

by ending us, you i may save

we’re beyond repair

along with my hair

i know you toss every night

i know you fly with me high as a kite

i know you’re brilliant, i see you with me

every place together, everything you mean to me

every unspoken word swiftly understood

every touch says we should

someday we’ll be in our own neighborhood

everything one day will make sense

with you and a white picket fence

i’ll try today, i’ll try tomorrow

follow my line nice and narrow

feel your heatbeat through my brain

every decision love me the same

i know you’re there you i’m here

year after year

paint on the page i smear

open up another beer

kiss me and cheer

eliminate every fear

and say you love me